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Two Fires

Daily Reading

Job 17-20

Daily Thought

T.S. Eliot wrote,

The only hope, or else despair
Lies in the choice of pyre or pyre-
To be redeemed from fire by fire.

Two kinds of fire. One consuming. We name it “despair.” This fire burns out into emptiness. Another fire purifies. This is “hope.” This fire burns on, it burns eternal. We have a memory of eternity. God put it in our hearts, but it was buried deep by sin. It is a hope now hidden. We live today in the tangible moment, consumed in pleasure and power and passion. But moments don’t last.

These are the two fires: one momentary, consuming. The other eternal, unseen.

Job discovered that hope is a gift found in suffering. Wrestling with despair, he suddenly explodes, “For I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth!!” (Job 19:25). He had opened the gift. In the middle of a fire that was consuming him, he found the fire that saves.

T.S. Eliot’s epitaph, his own words, “In my beginning is my end. …In my end is my beginning.” Apart from Jesus, all of life points at an ending. A bad one, actually. Despair. Open the gift of salvation, the end is no longer ominous, but the beginning of eternity. “My redeemer lives! I know it!!”

Daily Prayer

My Father, my Creator, my Sustainer, my Ever-Present Help in Time of Trouble, my Joy, my Life, my Passion, my Love. May the desire for you consume me.

I seek first your kingdom, your way of life, your righteousness. I have confidence that everything else is best placed in your hands.

Thank you for your Son, Jesus Christ, my Savior, my Hope.

Amen

Daily Question

If you know you will live in eternity, how does that change the way you live today?

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I Can’t Solve Me

Daily Reading

Job 8-10

Daily Thought

Bildad’s callous solution to Job’s suffering is simply, “If you are pure and upright, surely then he (God) will rouse himself for you and restore your rightful habitation” (Job 8:6); to which Job rightly replied, “Truly I know that it is so, but how can a man be in the right before God?” (Job 9:2). Job is saying, “You are right, Bildad, and that’s why you’re wrong.” Bildad believes you can be good enough before God, and Job despairs that good enough is impossible.

Job is a story of the contrast between two views of suffering, but, more importantly, two views of God. For Bildad, it is “do right before God”; for Job, it is “be right with God.” Bildad puts his faith in the character of man because Bildad is looking for a solution. Job simply needs to get his act together. Job trusts in the character of God because Job knows there is nothing he can do and he seeks a Savior. 

At first, Job fears there may not be one–“There is no arbiter between us, who might lay his hand on us both” (Job 9:33), he cries, looking for someone to bring him together with God. As the story continues, Job’s hope will increase, “I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth (Job 19:25). Job is correct and his name is Jesus.

“And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us.” ~John 1:14

“I can do this” means I am the solution. “I can’t do this” admits I need a Savior. The Gospel begins its work when I realize I can’t solve me.

Daily Prayer

My Father in heaven, You are holy. I am amazed that You even think of me, because I am not holy. Far from it. Yet You love me and seek me out. You save me, not because I have something You want or need, but You save me out of Your own pleasure. This is astonishing love.

Thank you for Your Son, Jesus Christ. Through His obedience, His life, His death, His resurrection, I am made righteous and given the certainty of eternal life with You. You have given me all I ever need, and therefore I can love others the way You love, not to receive something, but for the sheer pleasure of loving and giving and serving.

Amen

Daily Question

What do you do when you have a problem that can only be solved by God?

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My Way Wasn’t Working

Daily Reading

Lamentations 1:1-3:36

Daily Thought

“And he was longing to be fed with the pods that the pigs ate, and no one gave him anything.” ~Luke 15:16 

The younger son in Jesus’s story of the prodigal has entered the depth of despair, when the world has nothing left to offer. He had taken his father’s inheritance and boasted, “I will do it my way.” The most requested song at funerals is Frank Sinatra’s, “My Way.” But this was not his funeral, and the younger son had time yet to remember “how many of my father’s hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger!” (Luke 15:17). My way wasn’t working.

This was Jeremiah’s lamentation, “my soul is bereft of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is. My endurance has perished” (Lamentations 3:17-18). This is the plight of Israel, the opportunity to turn their whining and wailing from “Why should this happen to me” to “Why should not this happen to me?”

“The Lord is in the right,
for I have rebelled against his word.” ~Lamentations 1:18

At last, when they acknowledge my way wasn’t working, there is hope.

Remember my affliction and my wanderings,
the wormwood and the gall!
My soul continually remembers it
and is bowed down within me.
But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope. ~Lamentations 3:19-21

Hope is the flower that blooms in the desert of despair. The younger son turned his back to the world and returned to his father, and “the father said to his servants, ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate” (Luke 15:22-24).

Daily Prayer

Heavenly Father, You are good, and You are good to me, more than I deserve. But you are also fair and just. When I neglect Your Word, when I stray from Your leading, I get lost and I find trouble. I can’t blame You for that; it is the consequence of my desires. 

What amazes me is when You come searching for me when I’m the one who got myself lost. You lead me back to Your path, and welcome me back as if I had never strayed. I know what I deserve, and it’s not Your love and grace. Thank You for not giving me what I deserve, and giving me what I don’t. Your mercies never come to an end. They are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness.

Amen

Daily Question

Why do so many people choose to play “My Way” at their funeral?
What song would you choose?

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The Desert of Despair

Daily Reading

Lamentations 1:1-3:36

Daily Thought

“And he was longing to be fed with the pods that the pigs ate, and no one gave him anything” (Luke 15:16). The younger son in Jesus’s story of the prodigal has entered the depth of despair, when the world has nothing left to offer. He had taken his father’s inheritance and boasted, “I will do it my way.” There is an irony that the most requested song at funerals is Frank Sinatra’s, “My Way.” It is still a funeral, the world has nothing left to offer. But this was not his funeral, and the younger son had time yet to remember. “How many of my father’s hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger!” (Luke 15:17). 

This is Jeremiah’s lamentation, “my soul is bereft of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is. My endurance has perished” (Lamentations 3:17-18). This is the plight of Israel, the opportunity to turn their whining and wailing from “Why should this happen to me” to “Why should not this happen to me?”

“The Lord is in the right,
for I have rebelled against his word.” ~Lamentations 1:18

And now there is hope.

Remember my affliction and my wanderings,
the wormwood and the gall!
My soul continually remembers it
and is bowed down within me.
But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope. ~Lamentations 3:19-21

Hope is the flower that blooms in the desert of despair. The younger son turned his back to the world and returned to his father, and “the father said to his servants, ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate” (Luke 15:22-24).

Daily Prayer

Heavenly Father, You are good, and You are good to me, more than I deserve. But you are also fair and just. When I neglect Your Word, when I stray from Your leading, I get lost and I find trouble. I can’t blame You for that; it is the consequence of my desires. 

What amazes me is when You come searching for me when I’m the one who got myself lost. You lead me back to Your path, and welcome me back as if I had never strayed. I know what I deserve, and it’s not Your love and grace. Thank You for not giving me what I deserve, and giving me what I don’t. Your mercies never come to an end. They are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness.

Amen